You know how like 99.9% of the universe is made of plasma (the 4th state of matter), and most of that 99.9% is invisible? Which means that our observable reality is just a small fraction of our existence in this universe? THAT is what I have been exploring this year.

I’m going to warn you right now, this post gets strange.

On one hand, my life in this physical realm is going pretty well. My work is going well. My team is awesome. The kids are doing a lot better. I spend a lot of time at the pool, and I feel more peace than I have ever felt. My creative outlets are improving — art, music, and dance. I am figuring out who I really am and how I want to show up in this world and in the communities that I am involved in. I’ve gone on a lot of trips this year. Things are pretty good and simple over here.

But also, especially since the beginning of this year, I have been getting my ass kicked in the astral realm. It’s like some combination of another very intense dark night of the soul, being a part of the collective consciousness expansion that’s happening to a lot of humans right now as we usher in a new era of humanity, releasing a ton of epigenetic trauma that has been stuck in my body and converting my fascia into … something much more fluid and conductive, essentially converting myself into a new type of human that is more powered by source and sunlight and my own intuition, less powered by heavy food and external validations. At the same time, I’m unlocking a lot of “clair” powers, with clairsentience being the most obvious and intense one. With these unlocks, I am also learning how to control my energy and not be so porous with the energy of others.

You might be thinking “Well that sounds insane. How did all this happen?” And on one hand, I certainly cannot argue with that. According to a lot of the things we have been taught, it is “insane.” Yet, I have this deep, deep sense of knowing that it isn’t insane at all. Because it all happened very gradually, over the course of several years. I always had a relentless drive to find peace, ever since I was a child. I also always had this optimist mindset that the future could be better. Some might call it delusional or unhealthy daydreaming, but I think it was more like me ear-marking frequencies that I knew could someday become my whole life. Maybe it was just a blip of fantasy or a short window of peace, presence and joy in real life, but I just always had this sense that life COULD be that good all the time. Just keep following the path that leads you to that frequency, and you’ll get the life you dream of. It worked, but the dreams keep leveling up. I often get these little vignettes of fantasy of what life would be like as others arrive at the same level of awareness. How much freaking fun we could all be having. And I just kept going. Releasing old stuff that doesn’t belong. Untangling and releasing old attachments. Sitting with the hard feelings to process them and let them go.

As that happened, my body started changing. It started with a knot in my shoulder. The knot was always there, but one day, my intuition was like “I have to do something about this knot.” I started working on it. That led me to knots in other places. I just kept following the thread of releasing the tension from my body and feeling the feels that come with it. The releases come in waves, I learned. You have to build up life tension such that it triggers you to go back into whatever frequency you need to get to in order to release the thing. Release it, and then come back up to even greater peace and awareness. This feels insane as it’s happening because the waves get more intense as you go, and life stacks in intense ways to help with this process, but it logically makes sense. You build the tools to sit with more pain. You release more darkness, which allows you to hold more light, which is fuel to sit with more dark. And you have to push out that dark because it’s no longer your vibe! Repeat. More dark. More light. More dark. More light. Until you yard out all the dark that doesn’t belong here. (We were wrong about “moderation,” btw. What we really should be doing is this sort of yin/yang flow thing. LEAN IN baby! Stop resisting what already is true, and you will be surprised by the magic that emerges.)

Anyway, at some point along this path, I started getting these intense intuitive downloads (I guess you can call them downloads, or insights, or whatever). First it was like “hey, get off those SSRIs!” (and eventually all other medications) Then for awhile, it was like “eat a ton of ice cream.” Now it’s more like “Share this art. Make this post. Go to the beach with some art supplies and channel the sea. Go to Costa Rica to learn how to surf to help clear out your heart chakra. Slack your boss about something right now. Go see the Backstreet Boys and Subtronics on the same night in Las Vegas to usher in the new era of humanity.” So here I am, following the path and trusting that it will lead where it is supposed to lead. Much of the puzzle of my life’s purpose and path is still fuzzy, but the picture is starting to fill in, piece by piece.

My thoughts and mindset have also shifted as part of this process. My birds-eye view of the world has gotten higher, yet I also had to go through a lengthy and extremely painful phase of grounding, which has enabled me to ride all these waves a lot better. I am really starting to see how my inner world creates my reality, especially as I worked through some intense epigenetic block clearings this year. As those waves would pass through, it was crazy how much my world changed moment-to-moment. I’d see totally different sides of people depending on my mood and whatever intense energy was moving through me. There are a few lessons in this: one is that many people are wrong about manifesting. How could we know exactly where we are supposed to go or what goals we are supposed to achieve? We don’t. All we have is the path we are on right now. We can have a vision for the future and a frequency we want to attain, and we can do everything in our power to get there. But really it’s just a matter of getting to the frequency with the life you have now, and the world around you will adapt to meet you. Another lesson is that IT ALWAYS STARTS WITH YOU. Sorry I know a lot of people don’t like that. It’s not fair. But it’s true. Stop blaming other people for your troubles or judging what other people are doing. Take ownership of your role in it, and either change it or release your attachment to it. That’s the only way out, and you have full control over it. Once you release it, it will disappear. A third lesson is that the path to bringing your dreams into reality is something like this: channel source to get the download. GROUND yourself (this is the hardest part). Then bring it into reality by way of following the intention and the frequency. This is where the relationship between you, source and earth are very important. Channeling source, for me, appears to use the same spot in my brain that I’d use to do calculus integrals. It’s like an inversion from the back of my brain that takes me up into the backchannel data fabric of the universe. And the grounding on earth is really important so you don’t fall too far into psychosis (a little bit of psychosis is part of the process, though). (If I lost you in that last bit, don’t worry about it. It’s one of those IYKYK things)

Another thing I should mention is that my physical health has gotten a lot better throughout this whole process. With all the fascia tension, my body wasn’t really able to function properly. In early 2023, I could hardly turn my head to the side because my neck and shoulders were so tense. I’d struggle with coughs that wouldn’t go away. I’d stay sick for weeks. But not anymore. My asthma is gone. My vision has gotten a lot better. My mental clarity has also improved a lot. I don’t get sick in the same way that I used to because I can transmute negative energies a lot faster. I’m way smarter than I used to be, no question. I feel better than ever.

Anyway, here is some art that I made throughout the process!